And I was washing my sheets and pijamas and such, and I hit two buttons on the machine to get it the cleanest possible (since they go the longest on my body between washings), and I noted something about them. They were "Normal" and "Hot." One of them is good, the other bad for me to not be.
Normal doesn't exist. Therefore, since I like existance, I chose to not be normal.
Its the "hot" that bothers me.
Yes, I know not all of us can be Ed (from BNL [The hot one (so say my sources)]), or Trent Reznor (here's thinkin' of you, Kim [even though you don't read this...]), or others. I don't need to be that universally hot. Hell, I wouldn't know what to do with it, if I had it, and I'd probably get sick of it rather quickly. But, I would like it for there to be (at least) one girl who found me extremely attractive.
Now before those of you with deluded eyes tell me that I am attractive, I just need someone to really really want me. I know it seems silly, but I just want to feel that.
I know there are those of you out there who have "been there" and had people who wanted you just for your body. I know thats not the ideal. I know people get hurt, but I just want to try it.
ttyl, goin climbin,